I think I am Going to Loose it all
I think I am going to loose it all.
Today I had to tell my kind, compassionate counselor that I could not work with her anymore because every time I leave the house I have near death experiences. If I do not eat immediately if I have the urge I feel I will die. If I do not use the restroom right when I feel I need to I feel my whole body will shatter.
I know I am going to loose it all.
Two things could happen.
I could heal.
I could embrace my parents, brother, family and friends, healed.
I could return to my counselor and grieve, mourn and find hope.
Or I could die.
I could die because of one health mistake.
Or I could die of suicide.
We will see.
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