Is the World A Game of Chance?
I am not sure if the world is a game of chance or not?
The God that once felt close to me, I no longer know. I know he exists but I do not know who he is.
As far as I can see, he cares nothing about me or many other people on this earth.
I could be horribly wrong, but all I can draw from is my experiences.
And my experience is that, I am on my own.
That beauty and ruin is a game of chance and that God is only watching.
I know he does miracles. I have read and seen many testimonies and I believe them true– but I have seen no miracles that end my suffering yet. So I don’t have that to go on.
I don’t feel loved by God. I definitely do not feel cared for by him.
*throws hands up in the air* Well see what happens.
I know though, to retain my mind under so much stress, I am no longer at this time looking to God for help, comfort or love, because another let down could result in my giving up on life or loosing my mind– and I need to try my best to stay here.
* throws hands up in the air….*