Wondering What My Life Will be Like When the Torture is Over

When the torture is all over, I may need to talk myself out of a mercy killing on myself.

I may need to relocate somewhere far, somewhere particularly beautiful and peaceful where I can come to terms with the new injured version of myself.

I will write even more, I will have to because I will need to. Writing is what has kept me and what is keeping me alive, more than anything else.

I will need to join some part of a group, something small and non threatening- a pottery or painting class.

Every day I will have to convince myself that it is okay to be alive, despite my ruins.

I will have to find those who are also hiding out and struggling with deep wounds.

All this in no particular order, in no particular way.

 

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